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Wow this is exciting it's been a while since I have written in this format.  Curious to see what becomes of this one.  


 I guess I will just dive right in...


So it is Meet the Teacher Night for my Kindergartner and I notice  my feelings are calm, patient, and excited. As I am waiting to meet the teacher I notice this young mother and I have an instant flashback. Not of this young mother but of an earlier time in my life.   A time when I was 21 and my oldest was starting Kindergarten.  

Wow that thought is crazy since she just went off to College. 

By the way it also might be a good time to mention sometimes I brain jump.  So just go along with it. Ok back to my story. 

  I remembered being a little scared for her and myself.  Worried that other parents were judging me because I looked liked her older sister not her Mommy.   Wanting to desperately impress and join organizations that kind of gave me the cold shoulder.  Or at least in my mind they did.  Sensing that I needed to prove my worth.  And not really feeling like I fit in no matter how hard I tried. 

Phew!!! What a bunch of wasted energy and a lot of work. If I could go back I would tell myself stop worrying. Your a amazing mother and you are doing your best to the best of your abilities. And the little things that you fretted about, did not even matter at all.  Since that is not going to happen. 

I am saying it to you.  Be your best and love, love, love every moment of your life. 


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Elizabeth :)